Three Berkeley Trips
By a Goat, Sleep, and Abstinence
I had some wild times during my days
in Berkeley,
California. The
Sixties were long gone by the time I got there, but some of the spirit
lingered, and I sought it out. My three trippiest times there had nothing to do
with drugs. These three weird experiences were caused by, respectively, a goat,
sleep, and abstinence.
Trip 1, by a Goat
Or: Thurber’s World
I was visiting Marion Zimmer Bradley’s
house. After a few rounds of dilemma chess with the fantasy writer’s son, I
stepped out to their back yard for a stroll and a breath of fresh air.
It was evening; the zenith had
darkened to deep blue, the horizon glowed orange and red. A crescent moon
shone, and a few stars, and Venus too.
I stopped, amazed; for there in front
of me stood a goat. An Angora goat, waist-tall, with silky white hair… and a
single horn.
He was Lancelot, a successful animal-husbandry
experiment by Morning Glory and Otter Zell. At the goat’s birth, they had
surgically fused Lancelot’s two hornbuds together; the fused hornbud grew into
an imposing monohorn.
Lancelot was a unicorn. That surgically-modified
Angora goat looked like he had stepped out of a medieval tapestry. Morning
Glory and Otter Zell claimed that surgery like theirs was entirely possible for
the medievals; so perhaps unicorns had been real enough all along.
Just then, in the evening twilight,
with Moon and Venus overhead, that unicorn looked more than real; for Lancelot
was eating Marion Zimmer Bradley’s rosebushes. Those of you who have read James
Thurber’s stories know the one about the unicorn eating the rosebushes. In that
surreal moment, I learned that a visit to Marion Zimmer Bradley’s place can put
you in a Thurber story.
I also learned that unicorn droppings
are about one centimeter long and about half a centimeter wide.
Trip 2, by Sleep
Or: Which was the Dream?
I was sitting up in bed, reading a
book. It was late, I was tired. Then I noticed something odd; the words of the
book were changing and shifting. But why? Then I noticed something even
stranger; my eyes were shut. I felt my eyelids firmly sealed together; yet I
could see. But how?
I realized that I was asleep and dreaming.
Within that lucid dream, I looked up from the book and scanned the room. There
was the bookshelf, there were the knick-knacks, there was the couch, there was
the computer desk, there were the windows and shades… all dreams.
Then I willed myself awake. I opened
my eyes, and the first thing I noticed was that I was slumped over. I sat up,
closed the book, and looked around. Same bookshelf, same knick-knacks, same
couch, same computer desk, same windows and shades.
The two rooms were identical.
Trip 3, by Abstinence
Or: Planet of the Boobs
The nurse said, “You need to schedule
another blood test next week.”
I shrugged. “OK.”
“And to test hormone levels,” she
continued, “you’ll have to abstain from all sexual activity.”
“All sexual activity? For a week?”
“Mm-hm.”
“Including masturbation?”
“Mm-hm.”
I shrugged. A week without
masturbation sounded easy enough. We scheduled the blood test, I went home and
put away my one-hand magazines. (These were in the days before the Internet.)
A day came and went without
inconvenience, then another. But on the third day something odd happened. I was
walking down Telegraph Avenue, and I noticed
that every woman on the street had unusually large breasts. Not just some of
the women; all of them. This strange change in half the human population of Berkeley persisted all day, and I realized that it wasn’t
them, it was me.
My perceptions were distorted, due to
hormonal imbalance. Every woman’s breasts weren’t really bigger than before;
they just seemed that way to me. I was hormone-addled, and seeing things
strangely; I knew this, but the knowledge did not decrease the perceptual
distortion effect.
The effect increased on the fourth
day. Every woman, everywhere, had an amazingly ample bosom. I knew that was an
illusion, but it was a very convincing illusion. I tried not to look, or seem
to notice; but my judgment was probably as impaired as my perception; so if you
noticed, then please forgive my peeking, dear women of Berkeley!
By the fifth and sixth days, I was
adrift in an impossible parallel universe of fantastic mammary antigravitation.
I knew that I was hallucinating, but still I saw the mirage as plain as day. I
was amazed how clear, specific and florid the hallucination was; and as before,
knowledge of illusion did not dispel illusion.
On the seventh day I went to the
clinic and gave a blood sample. Then I went home and got out the one-hand
magazines.
The next day, every woman’s breasts
were back to normal size.